Hello Deviant Artists!
I have been away for a while due to minor loss of ambition. To be completely honest, I fell into photography because I love to express my creativity, and I love beauty and all I wanted to do - is photograph it.  People have started asking me to do their engagement photos, then wedding photos and as much as I love photography THAT is not what makes me want to pick up my camera and shoot. I started doing wedding photography to make some money, to pay off equipment, and why not, it'd be a side job. What I discovered was I had MORE fun shootings photos for fun than those I was being paid to do. so I got lost in the idea of turning photography into a business when all I wanted was to do creative shots where I was the mastermind behind the setting of the shoot, behind what the model is wearing, the make up the whole vision. I am a visionary.

I've been reading donald Trump book, Think BIG. And I realized that no amount of money could make me do something I don't enjoy doing. My passion is fashion photography. My passion is beauty and making beautiful images AS long as they are under my direction. The wedding shoots were directed by the "parents" by the "bridesmaid", by the "aunt" ! UGH It wasn't the fun I wanted. It wasn't anything I was passionate for...

It took a few months, a few books, a few breaths to sink in that all I want is to create what I see in my that is so perfect yet imperfect at the same time. Does that even make any sense?

xox